I had such difficulty trying to figure out what I’d say for this progress report that I kept putting it off entirely. Should I just skip the post this week? Should I make this a monthly installment? Should I report on the progress of things that weren’t included in my list of goals for this year? Should I do a reader poll to see what
my mom readers think I should do?
Then, I realized that part of why I couldn’t figure out what to do was because I didn’t want to admit to myself how lazy I’ve been about my goals so far. These aren’t resolutions made for the sake of having them. These are things that I actually want to do, need to do, and thought that I was ready to commit to doing. I started out strong on some of these things, but have really slacked off on everything but blogging at this point, which surprises me. The amount of work it takes me to plan, write, proofread, and illustrate each post…I just kinda thought I would have given up by now. So I’m proud of myself for at least being gung ho about one goal this year. (What the hell does “gung ho” actually mean? I’d google it, but I’m kind of in the middle of something right now and I’ll forget later.)
Even so, I’m mostly focused on how disappointed I am with myself about not being gung ho (that’s right I’m gonna use it again and again until someone tells me what it means) about other things on the list. I should have finished Amanda’s sunglasses bag by now. I should have finished Casual Vacancy by now. I was working out three times a week, but have slacked off on that for both legitimate and Pinterest-related reasons.
By Wednesday night, I found myself playing games on my phone instead of doing any of the things that I should have been doing — that I would have preferred doing. This was because I was disappointed in myself for not being gung ho about every goal on my list. I realize that it’s okay to be more excited about some goals than others, but that doesn’t make me feel better.
I decided to start this blog for fun, to practice my CG skills, and to have online marketing portfolio of sorts. When I started, I knew that I wouldn’t really know exactly what would work until I tried it, which is why I split the posts into three themes. The progress reports are making me dread the one thing that I’ve been gung ho about this year. So, new strategy. I’m only going to check in when I have something exciting to say. Well, maybe not exciting, but you know, something other than “I finished the October issue of Real Simple magazine this week.” (That’s true, by the way.) So, yeah, the Progress Reports will not be as frequent, but they’ll pop up occasionally.
Examples of my gung ho-ery thus far: